Happy St Patrick's Day

If you want a Genie, go rub a bottle

My life has been shadowed by death as far back as I can remember..

I wasn't in school yet, when my dad came home from the hospital with tubes running in and out of his stomach into a bag....
Memories you never forget.

I was molested by a relative for most of my 12 years of childhood? Before I moved out and never returned.

My first marriage was all about "until death do we part" and "your the one gonna die". Still have protection orders because his mentality has never changed.
Life looking over my shoulder.

While looking over my shoulder I stumbled into my second marriage.... Not good, for any of us.

Still working on getting through that one.

A collapse in a Safeway parking lot, began the journey of the physical side effects of a life of trauma and stress.

The heart, lungs, bones... so much starting to give out.
Every day is precious, you don't have to have an illness to die.
Life is not guaranteed.

Someone once said to me that maybe Karma was getting back at me.
Problem was I hadn't done anything to anyone to have Karma mad at me.

Someone else once said I pissed God off, From my interpretation of the Bible, I more likely pissed off the devil.

Everyday is a battle within one's own body, to carry us through the day. Every night a relief, to lay down and know, yet another one has been overcome.

One side I'm healthy and lucky the other side I'm doomed and unfortunate. It's all about how you look at things.

My healing both physically and mentally have come from the Lord, through the horses. They are my saving grace.

Throughout my life I have lived for the Lord, in the sense that I always feel like He's watching.... I want to please Him, so my actions for the most part have been positive.

I've made mistakes the biggest ...

I made the mistake of stepping away, telling God I got to go fix this then I'll be back.... I should have said, GOD help me fix this and the last several years might have been better.

Live and learn

Many times, I've returned to the Lord in prayer asking why I have been given such "luck"... Many times the voice replies,

If you want a Genie , go rub a bottle.

Throughout everything in all my years, God has never left my side. Throughout raising my children, running from my ex, being beaten down by others mental illnesses, never has God failed to take care of me and my family.

I've been blessed.

Not rewarded, Not given an easy road, Not given any wealth or great stature, Not given anything extraordinary.

I've lived to see my children grown, meet my grandchildren and even some great grandchildren so far. I live in a peaceful place with my horses at my side. I'm cared for and taken care of by those around me.

Thank you Lord
I've been blessed.

So if you want wealth or fame, greatness or stature...
If you want an easy life  ....
You want a Genie, go rub a bottle.

Blessed By God

Life's good @ the Bright side of the Barn,

Thanks for stopping by,

Until next time, Stay safe and Happy Trails.

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