It's time Grama

This last summer I had to do what was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. That was to decide to put down my senior gelding.
My Grandson's horse.

MR.BUDDY LOVE

RIP Mr. Buddy Love

Seizures 3 within hours of each other, led to the immediate prognosis - He was deemed unsafe to be around the children.
His age was nearing 30, his health had been good until the seizures. He lost weight rapidly and became depressed as did I.

It's taken a while for all of us to recover. I had four horses, adopted 2 out on a Thursday and by Monday, Buddy was at his worst. Gone the following Saturday.

StarBright went from the leader of a herd accompanied by Buddy her long time companion of over 15 years. To being the only horse standing next to me. I went from chores and horses care and expense to suddenly having time for the one horse and my grandchildren.... Hmmm.

My Grandson has mourned in his own way. He took it hardest of all. As one would expect an 8 year old to feel about his horse.

We have a horse trailer now and trail rides in the future. He was hanging out with me helping clean up the trailer and .......

He's informed me

It's time Grama, I need a new horse so we can go riding together.

So here's the AD.

WANTED a small horse / large pony. 13-14 hands works best. Older, prefer manners, ridable. Looking for the horse that you want to have a new good home and a boy to love (as well as many other children). I can't do wild rescues anymore due to back injuries. My grandson will be the trainer. Please call or text if you think you have his next horse. We're lifer's so this is a forever home. Until it's time to pass over . 
253-218-7121

Blessed by God

Life's good @ the Bright side of the Barn

Thanks for stopping by

Until next time, Stay safe and Happy Trails.

Branded DIsabled

It feels like a brand, an award, achievement.... something accomplished yet never ever wanted to attain.

Disability.

First - Something happens in life and suddenly you are not quite yourself and unable to return to the self you knew before.
This can be either physical or emotional.

Second - You have to accept yourself with limitations.
Try to understand the new self you have become.

Third - You make adjustments and try to learn to live with the new you.

Fourth - Your circle of people will react, differently.
More life adjustments.
Some don't understand and walk away, some help, some believe and some just don't know what to do.
Some say the cruelest things and break you even worse than you were.

Fifth - You find yourself defending yourself and your disability.
Insurance companies, State agencies, any compensation is going to be objected.
It's worse when you have to defend yourself to family and friends.

Sixth - You have to expose, explain and defend yourself for however long it takes. Losing all sense of privacy, your life an open book being examined and criticized and judged by people. Countless numbers of people......  until finally,

You are declared disabled.

By the time you reach this point, it has become a brand - a reward - an accomplishment. Sadly.

Now finally you can focus on your disability and the healing you need to achieve to live life to it's new fullest potential.

Sadly now there is more damage and deterioration to fix, restore and heal from. The road is harder and longer than it needed to be.

All the lost self esteem and self worth, the pride one had in self and the abilities of yesterday. All you worked for all your life, all you accomplished - memories.

You've been torn down to nothingness, a feeling of hopelessness and worthlessness. Lost everything for some along the way.

Finally, recognition for the damage done. Acknowledgement of the injuries and pain. Assistance that was needed long ago, now the future.

Invisible illness and disabilities are the hardest on the person who endures them. A wheelchair is obvious. Blindness has no argument.
Cancer a popular crutch... But internal pain, mental anguish .....

Unseen with disbelief.

Not a brand anyone wants to wear with pride. Yet a brand one finally feels relieved to achieve.

Who the hell are we to judge another's pain.

Blessed by God.

Life's good @ the Bright side of the Barn.

Thanks for stopping by and 

Until next time, Stay safe and Happy Trails.