Sorry haven't been around here much. New job has taken much of my time. And now it looks like I'm moving again too. Life keeps throwing curve balls and I'm so sick of the game. I should have left years ago and never looked back.
Tim's supposed 'bipolar' rants have taken over again. The attorney suggested I record the nasty things he says to me, for my case in court. I've surpassed my limit, I'm getting a divorce on the grounds of spousal abuse.
I seriously feel like I've wasted the last 30 years of my life helping someone that doesn't appreciate it. He's self centered cares for no one but himself. He's rude, He's disrespectful, He's down right mean and nasty. Some of the things he's said to me. The things he's said to my children and the hurt he has caused all of us.
My therapist told me not to move back in with him. It was a fatal mistake that I'm now paying dearly for. He wouldn't have been able to afford the house without my money. And now, I'm sure he'll lose it. He doesn't know how to manage money. It's his 'bipolar' FMLA days that have put him so far behind on things. Everytime I get him a step ahead, he takes a day off and puts himself behind further.
I had no choice but to move - the wife of the man I rented from, was breaking into my RV and stealing things. A lot of jewelry was missing from my friend who also rented there with her RV. The woman is a thief and preys on her husbands tenants. I had to move! My horses were going lame from the crappy fields they got moved too...
On one occasion Tim tried to get me to kill myself, kept saying things about me and my family, kept offering me a knife.. ...I know that's what he wants.
I can't do this anymore this man has destroyed me once before and I'm not going down again.
So I don't know how bright it's going to be around the barn for a few. I'm hoping to find affordable senior housing soon.. need to get the car fixed, he's already threatening to leave me stranded.
Hmmm, think this all has something to do with the job God put in my lap....
come to think of it, I haven't been able to work being married to him because of his 'fits' and he has cost me several jobs. He's called my bosses, called me at work all hours. Oh yes, this is all because I'm working again.
You would think being with a man 30 years he would have invited me and my children to his 'family reunion'.....