Something needs to move!
I love my home, my horses are happy, I'm working.... What needs to move?
My 'life' planets have been in a spin since this new job started just about 3 months ago. . . I've been trying to figure out what part of life, is causing the blood pressure to climb and the anxiety to multiply....
Something needs to move.
Tonight, after 48 hours away from there... I'm finally feeling 'my normal'.
I rode today. It was only for a few minutes, we haven't rode hardly since this 'new job'. But it was a few minutes of good connecting with my girl and getting myself grounded. She really does help get the planets lined up.
Let's me put my mind in focus... We've been thinking about adding a new member to our herd, so of course, as we rode, reflections of the rescue horses ran through my mind. So relaxing, so magical. I miss those rides.
Don't worry. We have some alignment to do and the whole point of the job is to get the car fixed, caught up on bills, a new saddle and our own trailer again.... then we'll add a new member to the family.
So What's out of alignment? Tonight I have come to realize
It's the 'job'.
Now - What's wrong with the job?
Where do I start? It's been 3 months and there is nothing consistent about it, other than the 'chicken' comes on Mondays and the 'bosses' mood is unpredictable.
I'm not one to bitch or complain but I feel myself wanting to bitch and complain. That in itself tells me - that something is wrong. I have never had such a complicated boss. The words, "Micro manage" is the only way to describe the problem.
I'm used to working for people that tell me what they want done and when they want it done by. If it requires showing me how to operate a machine or computer, we go over the basics then it's up to me to do it 'my own style'.
I've done retail and customer service for over 40 years now. With mystery shopping for the companies and on site compliance inspections. I really do know how to work in retail and I have pretty awesome customer service skills.
Most of my prior employers were sorry to see me go and I've been asked back on a regular basis. It's nice to be appreciated. I have to say again. I'm used to being told what needs done and when it needs done by, then left to my own to get it done.
HERE, it's complicated.
The boss gets upset easily, very repetitious about mistakes. Very hard to want to talk to about anything.
Starts out adamant about things like masks, but selectively chooses when and who to enforce it on, then in time wears down and occasionally speaks up about it. ... inconsistent.
We've lost a lot of good customers over the masks in the early days. They haven't come back.
You can do 99 things right and he looks for the 1 thing you missed or did 'wrong'.
We get a routine going as 'teams' when working together and things are going well. Everything gets remembered and done.... and the 'boss' comes along and changes the way he wants it done or adds something else to do.
It's like telling you to 'mop the floor' and then telling you how you 'have to hold the mop' and 'which way you have to go with it'.
micro managing.
Then there's the cameras....
Most folks would tell their crew what needs done and when it needs done by then leave and go home..... Trust their people to 'get the job done'. Not worry about it until their own next shift.
Nope. Not here.
My 'boss' goes home and watches us work on the monitors. He'll call the store multiple times, especially if your 'standing' around and/or on your phone. Or the 'favorite' of everyone... When your super busy and have a line of customers or a huge order to cook.
I really could keep going, but like I said. It's frustrating that I have turned out to be complaining...
When I love the work. Retail / customer service / maintaining the store. It's easy work.
Yet this job is really hard to want to go to work every day. Hopefully this time away will help.
It's starting to hurt my lower back and left foot. Standing for so many hours might be too much. ...
So, this weekend and riding will hopefully help me get re aligned. Find answers and get going forward in the right direction. God loves to ride along and chat with me when we're out on the trails.