When I'm struggling with things in my head I don't like to project a negative energy, so I shut the 'curtains' so to speak.... keep to myself and deal with things.
My horse heals me.
It's been said by many folks including my last therapist, and I do miss her.....
I've been told so many times, "YOU SHOULD WRITE A BOOK", followed in the same breathe by the statement.. "no one would believe this shit."
The book would be titled something to that relevance. ......My Life
Has been born backwards, what can go wrong has gone wrong.
if it's even possible to happen, it will probably happen to me. .
Seems it goes wrong, before it goes right.
Just one example....
Have the bank account hacked into, so you have to put a fraud freeze on the account. This particular bank not only deactivates the cards but closes the account and opens you a new account....
so all your automatic payments that are due to come out of the paycheck that's due to deposit tomorrow to a now closed account......
We won't mention that one payment is to the IRS and if it's missed the whole payment plan goes into default.... of course guess which payment the bank missed paying...
Getting emails about all the other payments bouncing back....
Another example...
I found myself in court over the BECA bill with one of my kids, at the same time I was dealing with their dad in family court.....
What are the odds I'd get the same judge in both courts..
.. About as good as having my EX standing in the courthouse when I received my paperwork, so the sheriff that was there could walk over and serve him..... The officer must have been 7 feet tall.
My favorite example...
Your going to love this one
I totalled my truck December 12th, I'm dealing with several broken bones, the other guys insurance and almost $26,000.00 in hospital bills, a total loss on my truck....
And I get a bill from the Army in the mail....?
Apparently I dumped a few tons of garbage near an Army gate and the clean up cost nearly $1000.00. Now I'm sooooo dumb, I happened to put a piece of mail with one of my old addresses on it, so they traced the garbage to me.......
Um the mail was from Child support and my youngest child was 32 years old...... That is an incredibley old piece of mail to be in such pristine condition.
Um the mail and dump site was found in the same city my ex mother in law recently passed away and some of the garbage looked like it could have come from her house......
After writing the Army a letter, they came to the conclusion that I did not dump the garbage and someone from my Ex's family was trying to make it look like me....
Merry Christmas, no bill was owed.
57 years old, and the stories I could tell......
Wonder why I have
Anxiety, depression, stress, high blood pressure, always appearing 'mad or upset', simply because the stress level is so high... smiling doesn't come naturally.
Yet, through it all and it's been a few decades... through it all.. God truly has provided and taken care of things. Right down to the little details.
And in the end ~ Things have worked out.