Snow since Christmas, it's been cold and miserable outside. Not much gets done. Except 'lounging'....
The kittens have been staying close to each other since Sophia's passing. Tux is taking it harder than Sylvester. She was like a 'mama' to them and they slept with her every night. Now they stay close to me.
The bad weather keeps us from wanting to go anywhere or really do much of anything. I have so much pain in my back and foot - that it's hard to move around much in the cold, much less 'do anything'.
When the kids were young, we'd play board games and watch movies together during the holidays, snuggle up and stay in when the weather was bad.
We had a wood stove downstairs in 'the old house' and the kids were always complaining I had the house 'too hot'....
oh do I miss that raw wood heat.... nothing warms the bones like it!
This year, I found myself passing the time doing jigsaw puzzles.
It's incredibly relaxing somehow. Your mind let's go of stress and things that need solving. You find yourself drifting, Reminiscing about years past.. { At least I do.}
I remember growing up, my mother always had a puzzle table with a new puzzle going on. Everyone would spend some time sitting there working on it. . Company would come for coffee and find themselves placing a piece or two.
Many hours were spent 'relaxing' in front of a puzzle, together as a family. And Damn - I find myself really missing my family this year.........
My kids didn't really know my family, the people I grew up with. My parents, siblings and such. They know nothing of the way I grew up, how we interacted and the things we did together. What we believed, how we celebrated. ..
They never got to know my family, my own kids really don't know me or where I come from, or anything about my life.
Hell, my own kids really don't know ME at all.
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Truthfully - I feel like my family and my kids are like two separate families. It's been hard.
I'm finding that being alone without a dog for the first time in 20 years, has made me feel really alone. I talk to my animals. I've spent more time in therapy with my dogs than with any human being. That dog knew me better than anyone! The horses know some things.... guess they are going to find out more.
This year is having a really rough start.
Missing family
Blessed by God
Life's good @ the Bright side of the Barn
Thanks for stopping by
Until next time, Stay safe and Happy Trails.
