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May 24, 2022

My Breaking Point

 I think I've reached my breaking point. 

My checks have been consistently short a few hours, more than they have been accurate. It gets made up later, it's just a bit of a hassle the way the schedule is constantly changing.

My co-workers quite often leave early - 'because it's slow', yet my shift has no provision for leaving early as it 'closes' the store. The option to come in later when 'it's slow' hasn't been offered. Usually because the others have 'left early' already.

I screwed up and didn't card ended up selling to a minor...

That has thrown my concentration off to start with ....

My truck was recently hit in the parking lot. I have disability parking, but because I'm 'an employee' they prefer I park out in the lot. I now have a huge dent to live with, as of course, no one has taken responsibility for it. 

Today I was informed that my schedule the next 2 days is being changed. When I was asked a week ago about changing these days up, I expressed how that didn't work for my schedule. Apparently that doesn't matter. 

I'm now looking at working 3 hours tomorrow and 11 hours on Thursday. 

Which is not going to happen. 

I cannot do that much in a day. And with my anxiety, all this constant changing my schedule is causing me to have other issues and relapses on the stress levels. 

I won't be getting much sleep tonight, the whole thing has me stressed out. I don't exactly want to quit, I the people I work with. I don't mind the work for the most part. But this crap is killing me, and I don't know how much more I can take. 

Let's not forget, part of my disability is the whole anxiety and what comes with it. The physical issues are struggling just about as much. I don't know how this is going to turn out, I'm just not feeling good about it all.

When I first started and again when I went back I was willing to give up a couple days a week. I'm currently at 4 and they want more. 

I so much prefer working for myself and doing events. I love people I love the customers, I miss the 'control' over my own environment. 


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