July 24, 2022

The Down Side

 It's been a rough week. Having the car break down has created an undo amount of stress. It's hard for me to drive 'other people's' cars, so even though it's my daughter's and she's ok with it. I just stress driving the car cause it's not mine. 

 For me, stress and anxiety cause me to struggle to concentrate and stay focused. It used to be totally paralyzing and cause panic attacks. I've gotten better. It only took a couple mild strokes to send me down the path of understanding just how powerful STRESS is and how real the affects of ANXIETY  can be. Most importantly, how to LIVE WITH IT.

 Getting the dog a nice distraction. A little more work to the load. While it's a load I already feel is 'over loaded', it's nice to have the companionship. Life has been lonely without my previous 'dog', Miss Sophia. 

 I like being by myself but I don't like being alone. LOL figure that one out.... I think there are a lot of folks that enjoy the companionship of their fur babies to humans and understand me totally on that note. 
 
 Miss Chanel has become quite the star around here. It was pretty funny when my daughter came over. Miss Chanel stood behind me and barked at her, like she was saying "NO, NO, your not taking me back there!". I then found out a little about her journey from her mamma to here, and how hard it was.

 Bounced from person to person a couple times, to where she was always hiding under the couch.?? Accidents on the floor... 

She hasn't even tried to hide since coming home and we've only had the one accident the first few minutes she was here. 


 She has a blanket on the couch and on my bed, so the cats know, that's her spot. She's borrowing Tux's harness and leash, he's not to thrilled but willing to share. He always tip toes onto the bed and lays somewhat close to her after she's passed out asleep. {He misses Miss Sophia too} 

 Miss Chanel has gotten a taste of 5 out of 6 cat tails. She's pretty much letting Tux, Sylvester and Felico walk about the house. Charlie and her get along outside, but not when Charlie is in the house. Cleo torments her and it's still a challenge. She's just getting to know Gismo and the growls are pretty intense still. 

 Haven't gotten to spend near as much time with the horses as I'd like to. It has been nice to let them enjoy being horses, but I can tell they are missing me as much as I'm missing them. I was told today that a neighbor spotted a bear just down the road from where they are. ... Now I'm concerned. 

 Like - Why? 

 The bear has probably been there every day going back and forth to the creek for water, and now just because someone actually seen it crossing the road.... panic sets in.? lol, yep - I laugh at myself sometimes. 

Sigh ~

 It's been hard with one car broke down and having to drive someone else around. Now both cars are down. I'm up early and have to stay up late. No sleep and what there is - isn't a restful sleep, so you wake up exhausted. The brain is working overtime trying to figure out the repair bills and still keep the roof over everyone's head, with the power turned on for hot showers, a few kibbles to eat .... 

 I don't know how ~ but this has got to all work out ~ someday soon I hope. Meanwhile... God give me the strength and will 
to keep going. 


Blessed by God
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