I was just reading through some drafts, one titled "Another Birthday on the horizon". I have thousands of thoughts pouring through my head today. 58, really it's no big deal. For me it is. I was 41 when doctors told me I only had another 5-10 years with my heart and lungs. And that was only if I quit smoking cigarettes. Something I've yet to completely accomplish. Still trying and I'll never stop trying to quit. Until someday, I shall succeed.
Part of me feels very disappointed and un accomplished. Another part, says ~ there are a lot of things to be proud of. I'm not rich financially, however, I'm very rich in heart. I've made a lot of mistakes in life, I've learned a lot, I've had a lot dumped on me that wasn't mine to deserve. . . and I've kept going. I'm still here.
Talked to my 2 oldest brothers today... 69 and 68, going to be 70 and 69 this year. I was the baby of our family and They were my protectors. Funny how, suddenly I didn't feel quite so old.
I found the cutest cake!!!
I did not work today, I did not watch any of the grandkids. Papa Tim took the day off to hang out with me and BBQ'ed some ribs. My son, daughter in law and Grand daughter came for dinner and cake. It was nice. I didn't know he had made the plans with the kids beforehand! For Tim, that's amazing!
I spent time with my horse and rode for a few minutes. We have not rode much at all this year, so I'm trying to start daily rides and build up to getting out on the trails!!. She needs to lose a few pounds to be comfortable, not too much with winter coming on. Ok I confess she's actually 50 plus pounds over weight. So we really need to get at least half that down.
I'm happy for lil horse, she really does love attention and wasn't getting what she needed. I watched her interact with her new kids and it was pretty special to see her looking for her little girl. Lil Star gave me kisses when I was leaving as if to thank me.
I'm off work Friday too! I'm going to call the mechanic and brace myself for the estimate. I have to get one of these cars running and get life turning around and back on top.
It's ok for the boat to tip over, it's okay to catch your breathe. But, then, you got to tip it back up, bail out the water, get back in and get back to it!!
Life doesn't stop. Life doesn't wait. You gotta learn to enjoy every minute of every day. Even the bad days. Because life goes from 15 to 50 faster than you can imagine!!! I've had dreams come true and witnessed so many miracles in my life. I love the family I created and I'm grateful to all the peoples I'm blessed to call my friends.
