This is the last picture I have of my oldest son. It's one of the last pictures I have of my oldest Granddaughter as well.
When things go wrong - make it right.
When problems happened between my son and I it was complicated because of his dad's violence towards me. I showed up to get my son and was chased off the property with my son standing there watching. That was pretty much the end of US.
I have never been 'complete' since.
I had 4 kids and 3 wanted to stay with me and get away from the violence and move forward in life. Hoping to find a little peace. My son looked up to his dad, And somehow - he thought he could fix him. Instead his father broke him.
I hope everyday that I will see him again. I pray he is safe and well.
Sometimes, you can't make everything right.
My Life -
Trying to get away from a second violent situation, I wasn't able to 'be there' when my granddaughter needed me the most. I blame me for some of her problems because as the Grama, it's my job to be there when my son or daughter's can't. As the Grama, is still my job to Make it Right.
So many times I've thought if only I never met HIM. I might not have lost my son, I might have been able to save my granddaughter. I might have this or I might have that. Believe me, at the time it's happening you really do think your making the right choice. and Sometimes you just know this was a wrong choice and there is no other choice - you know it's not going to end well......
I love my kids they are and always have been my world. Anytime something is wrong between us, {myself and any one of them} I lose sleep, can't eat, cry too much, and almost become paralyzed with grief depending on how bad it is. I'm persistent until we fix it. In my heart, I just can't lose another one.
Having people jerk children out of your life and play yoyo with them, is something you never really heal from. People believing the lies, pumping stories into children's heads, to think
things were then - as they are now....
NO ---
Laws and the way things worked have changed over time. Once you could shoot and kill a simple trespasser no questions asked. Now you can't even stop a shoplifter.
Men used to be ALLOWED TO BEAT THEIR WIVES.
{Seriously, think about that.} Believe me THINGS HAVE CHANGED.
So when things go wrong - Do all you can to MAKE IT RIGHT.
Don't let SOMETHING sit there and rot.
Blessed by God
LIfe's good @ the Bright side of the Barn
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Until next time, Stay Safe and Happy Trails.