June 5, 2023

Sitting on the Fence

 People on one side of the fence, say this is really no big deal, lots of people survive it. { He thinks he's only gonna miss a couple days work with surgery ....}

On the other side of the fence I know people who have lost someone from this very thing. { guys that think they just going to keep working - blow it off - end up dying at work } with no planned 'just in case' 

-and then the family loses everything by the time you have a funeral - house included.

Everyone has 2 cents ~ 

 
Yes, I've heard many opinions this past week and had many crazy thoughts from one extreme to the other... I hate waiting for doctor appointments and answers....
 
He's missed so much work already, he misses 1 to 2 days a week because of this and what it does to his bipolar as well.. bills are piling up.. Not much left to sell except the house. . . and He thinks he can put off surgery until the bills are caught up... 

If he would just retire... 


it wouldn't matter if he was sick, or how sick or even if he felt super good. He could enjoy what's left of life.

he would have money to pay off bills, a steady monthly income - regardless of if he felt good or bad, missing work wouldn't be an issue. 

On his good days he could do things that he enjoys. That would help balance out the bad days and the doctor days. 

How am I supposed to feel..


I really don't know right now. Part of me wants to be just as selfish as him, and only think of me and run - save myself from the hell. 

Another part of me, the part that has me in this in the first place, is that I am all he has for help. His own family abandon him and there is no one to help him deal with his bipolar or now this. 

So here I am "sitting on the fence" 

Blessed by God 
Life's good @ the Bright side of the Barn
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