What's the worst thing you can do
to a person with ANXIETY?
SURPRISE THEM!
1st my Birthday.
Now Christmas.
Why do I react the way I do?
Because they trigger an anxiety attack.
I don't like secrets or surprises.
My heart rate spikes I have chest pains and the panic attacks start happening.
My mind goes dark, depression takes over...
I see the worst of everything
and all hope of getting through the event with happiness is Lost.
I struggle to survive
.. then live with guilt instead of happy memories...
Knowing I have hurt them again.
Having kids has been the hardest part of my life. I am the worst mother ever.
They don't know me or understand me, it's impossible for them to do what would make me happy.
They do things that a normal person would appreciate.
I have anxiety and PTSD.
I suffer depression.
I have self worth issues.
I have phobias about going places I have never been to.
I have sleep issues and can't sleep in a strange place.
I'm anti social, very private ... Don't like public place events where I am in a spotlight.
I can't do a buffet breakfast with strangers. That would trigger a panic attack.
Sometimes I say things thinking out loud. Not expecting anyone to act on it. No one hears the But ... I'd rather...
I have hated my life and how worthless I have become. I've been such a burden on my kids for years.
I've actually wanted to die for a long time now. I don't understand why God has kept me here.
This year my birthday and Christmas have now been the worst. They try to do nice things. But my anxiety wins every time. I end up hurting my kids.
I wish I could have been normal.
Spending Christmas Eve and Christmas Day alone this year. Probably going to shut off the phone.