Bright Side of the Barn

July 7, 2021

Miss Sophia

The last couple years have been rough. There's been a couple occasions I made the appointment with the vet, only to cancel. She just didn't seem ready to go. The kittens have been a blessing and they love their 'kitty mum' a lot. Even with as sick as she is, at the end of the day they both are laying close to her to sleep.

The last couple days have been really rough, last night I thought we wouldn't see this morning. She's hanging in there. I know it's getting close now. As long as she doesn't seem to be in pain or uncomfortable, I'm respecting nature and God's will. We pray every day.

There are no words to describe what the last 14 years have been like with her at my side. Through it all.

Blessed by God

Life's peaceful @ the Bright side of the Barn.

Thanks for stopping by

Until next time, Stay safe and Happy Trails.

July 4, 2021

Enjoy your Freedom today

I hope everyone stays safe and has a Happy 4th of July. I personally wish fireworks were ban and left in China where they belong.

Freedom - Independence.....

It hasn't felt very free in our country lately.

Life hasn't felt very free lately either.

Forgive the quietness. I don't like to complain and I no longer have my wonderful therapist to vent to. So silence holds things in place. The month of June was contemplation and preparation for things to come.

Blood and family are 2 different things. Sadly I have some blood that doesn't know the meaning of family. And some family that doesn't understand the meaning of blood.

I live in a complicated situation, stressful and depressing. My horses are my happiness and my escape. My grandchildren the joy of life. However I guard my heart and we're not as close as we could be.

Many ask why I returned to such misery and feel I deserve it. Since I 'chose' to be here. I stayed to find out what was wrong and I wanted to understand. I had hoped I could fix it.

To what cost? The pain and grief it's caused me and my children? The lives it's destroyed.. to whose advantage?

Wasn't mine.

Some think I'm a mean person. Like everyone I have a dark side. It only shows to those who have caused pain in my life. I waste no energy on people that have done wrong. I simply close the door. That makes me mean.?

What does it make those that cause the pain ?

People have no idea the pain I live with.

I may not be around much in July as well. Still struggling with overcoming some obstacles to my peace. As always life's better at the barn.