The truth of the matter

 

Christmas time... 

Hasn't always been the happiest time of the year for me. There have actually been years where the decorations and everything came down the day after if not Christmas day night. 

My ex mother in law was a horrible creature that would manage to cause some form of problem for us every year, disrupting Christmas day every time.

After the divorce, my Christmas was divided. Because of previous kidnapping attempts by my ex, I was never able to relax when the kids would go to his family - especially on the holidays! 

2nd husbands family wasn't and hasn't ever accepted or treated my kids and myself like family. The disrespect has lasted 30 years and going.  His mother was so bad, she would bring presents for him and his son, and hand them out in front of my kids. 

I have swallowed so much pain, watching my kids hurt. Watching people hurt my kids, all because they don't like me. There is so much about my life..... fact is - there is only 2 people that know the truth of my life and all of my story. So much is buried. So much has been lied about and distorted. So much my own children don't know and can't understand.

So much more to Christmas past.......

I almost hate Birthdays and holidays the way nobody gets along and there is no normal for the kids. Someone always has to hurt someone's feelings. It really doesn't bother me how much they hurt me, it's my kids and my grandkids that get hurt. Now I have great grandchildren that are being affected...

It never ends. 

I did everything I could to protect my children from being hurt.....

Sometimes it feels like failure. 

God know my heart and has stood by me through it all. I hope there comes a day He and I can talk about all of it .... with an understanding light. Until then, we do the best we can one day at a time, just try and  Focus forward.

Blessed by God

Life's good @ the Bright side of the Barn

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Until next time, Stay safe and Happy Trails.

Stop the Pain

In many cases, suicide can be prevented. 

Learn the risk factors and warning signs, which include depression, change in personality, self-harm behavior recent life crisis and conversation about wanting to die. If a family member or friend talks about suicide, take them seriously. Listen without judgement and encourage them to seek professional help .

What are some of the most common suicide warning signs? 

Some of the more common warning signs that a person may be thinking of ending their life include: 

 Being sad or moody: The person has long-lasting sadness and mood swings. Depression is a major risk factor for suicide. 

Sudden calmness: The person suddenly becomes calm after a period of depression or moodiness. 

Withdrawing from others: The person chooses to be alone and avoids friends or social activities. They also lose of interest or pleasure in activities they previously enjoyed. 

Changes in personality, appearance, sleep pattern: The person’s attitude or behavior changes, such as speaking or moving with unusual speed or slowness. Also, they suddenly become less concerned about their personal appearance. They sleep much more or much less than typical for that person. 

Showing dangerous or self-harmful behavior: The person engages in potentially dangerous behavior, such as driving recklessly, having unsafe sex or increase their use of drugs and/or alcohol. 

Experiencing recent trauma or life crisis: Examples of crises include the death of a loved one or pet, divorce or break-up of a relationship, diagnosis of a major illness, loss of a job or serious financial problems. 

Being in a state of deep despair: The person talks about feeling hopeless, having no reason to live, being a burden to others, feeling trapped or being in severe emotional pain. 

Making preparations: The person begins to put their personal business in order. This might include visiting friends and family members, giving away personal possessions, making a will and cleaning up their room or home. Often the person will search online for ways to die or buy a gun. Some people will write a note before attempting suicide. 

Threatening suicide or talking about wanting to die: Not everyone who is considering suicide will say so, and not everyone who threatens suicide will follow through with it. 

However, every threat of suicide should be taken seriously.

 Can suicide be prevented? 

In many cases, suicide can be prevented. 

The best way you can help prevent suicide is to: 

 Learn the risk factors for suicide. Be alert to the signs of depression and other mental health conditions. Recognize suicide warning signs. Provide caring support. Ask directly if the person has considered hurting themselves. 

People who receive support from caring friends and family and who have access to mental health services are less likely to act on their suicidal impulses than are those who are isolated from support.

Information provided by: Cleveland Clinic

https://my.clevelandclinic.org/health/articles/11352-recognizing-suicidal-behavior

Blessed by God

Life's good @ the Bright side of the Barn

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Until next time, Stay safe and Happy trails.