I love how God works!

 It's been crazy to watch and feel the way God has been working in my life. After a very difficult Christmas, I was broken in so many ways. The weather had been holding up until January, but the battery on the truck hadn't been. 

So very grateful to my son and daughter for all their help with my 'car troubles' and getting through. Still feel badly I disrupted everyone's Christmas.

As you all know the temperatures in January dipped well below freezing, thankfully a few friends helped out at the end of the year and beginning of the new year. I was able to be in a motel for the New Year and get a new battery on the truck. 

A dear friend worked hard to help find me a place to go after a call for low-income housing led to a 'turn down' due to 'no recent rental history' among other things. {Can you imagine that! No wonder homeless people can't get a place to live}. 

Tim had a breaking moment and ended up in the hospital for a week in January. He's been having several issues of his own. Hard to help someone sometimes. I think he needs to be with his own family, which would mean moving back to Canada. 

There I was with just my animals. Woke up to ice on the mirrors. A good friend {and angel} took me home for the weekend, while I waited for a situation that another friend was working on - to work out} Of course Monday was a holiday, so it was a long weekend! lol. 

I got to come to the house, just in time for the snow to start falling. I was worried about being able to afford it with all my bills and God has blessed me every month with a way to get through. A little rough at first, but better every month. Through the worst of the weather, and every day grateful I wasn't stuck out in it!

I had to make some sacrifices, give in to some things I wouldn't normally have agreed to or wanted to. Give up a few things that meant the world to me. {I feel like I let others down with the decision}. But with each sacrifice, God rewarded me with twice as many blessings. 

I haven't seen much of the kids since being here. A couple have come and had dinner with me. I haven't been invited over anywhere, so I've been keeping to myself here. Working on my own health, trying to get caught back up with the doctor appointments and tests. Doctor knows it's getting harder to get up and down, so more tests have been ordered. 

I remember praying one day, after seeing a post on facebook of all places.. {image at the beginning of the post, link to writer attached.}  - God help me not need so much help from people.  I'm so tired of having to ask for help. I'm tired of feeling like I failed myself. 

After being independent and the 'strong one' for so long. Please put me back in the place where I was the one helping others. As I prayed, I listened to myself realizing why I was here. . . . . . . . 

You are more effective on one side of the fence when you know how it feels to be trapped on the other side. 

Learning to accept help is a humbling experience. 

If you have ever heard God speak to you, you would understand how it happens. 

I read a scripture the other day, how He puts His angels in charge around us. I used to say - He appointed one just for me to ask questions, because I had so many to ask. 

We blow it off and call it 'gut feelings' 

when I think really, it's 'spiritual guidance'.

That voice that tells you - 

to move to the other side of the street. 

Don't go out tonight.  

Avoid that person. 

Buy that house it's a good one 

So many times ... that little voice.... the one you don't hear out loud. 

got to learn to be quiet so you can hear it. 

Blessed by God

Life's Full of Blessings @ the Bright Side of the Barn

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Until next time, Stay Safe and Happy Trails.

Oh Happy Days

I'm so happy they are getting closer to each other. Chanelle usually growls and shows her teeth when the cats get too close. She doesn't really bite them {Although she did get Cleo hard once} Chanelle got it trouble when she did so it's not a habit anymore. She's just so much smaller that I think they make her nervous. 

I've really enjoyed being OUT of the truck, more than I realized. I'm getting nervous about the 'end of May' and what's all going to happen and where am I going to end up. I've gotten a good daily habit going on, I don't want to lose it. Trying hard not to think about it or worry. I just want to enjoy the time I have left here. 

I really like Enumclaw so it kinda sucks to be leaving. 

The 'new' farrier has rescheduled 2 or 3 times now; I can't keep track it's been so many. My girl is overdue by a month to getting her feet done. Little bit frustrating. I'm more organized than this, when I make an appointment, I do my best to keep it.  Just breathe. Let's hope it's worth all the hassle. I'm pretty picky about who does her feet and how they do them is important. I finally heard from George my old farrier. Glad to know he didn't pass away, just retired. We were worried there for a while the way he just dropped out of communications. 

It's truly been a series of blessings so far this year. January 1-21st were the hardest, being in the truck as the weather got super cold. I got out of it just as temperatures hit 27 degrees. I was worried the first month or so here, if I would be able to pay rent, power the gas and garbage bills, on top of the board, phone bills, medical insurance and prescriptions. Then hopefully have money to buy food and coffee. 

Had to go to the food bank once or twice. YUCK! They accept expired food, and I'm sorry but it tastes old and horrible. Haven't been back since the cereal box was dated to expire in 2022 {This is 2025}. 

Thankfully I haven't had to go back! It was a couple hard decisions to put the cats out for adoption, so hard, Sylvester came back home. {He was depressed, and I was having anxiety over the separation} Tux was found a wonderful new home, where he is the only cat. I'm sure he's loving all the attention that comes with that. They have a large dog that he was getting along with from what I could see in the pictures. It was super hard to let pony go. But I did find her a wonderful new home, where she will be well cared for, and they can afford to keep her healthy and happy. The money helped catch up board bills and keep afloat through February. 

March, we moved my girl to a friend's house to board with her two horses, and I do believe my girl is loving the companionship. She hasn't had a full-size buddy in a long time. And oh-my how the two of them have bonded. Riding together this summer should be a blast. Plus my board expense went down enough to be able to breathe better and afford more of StarBrights needs. 

So cute how she watches over her buddy while "Nova" lays down to rest. First day, her and "Whinnie" the white horse got along, like Whinnie was telling Nova to be nice. Now ever since, her and Whinnie don't get along as well. It's getting better, only a couple rough spots. Funny how Whinnie is just one year younger than StarBright and Nova is about ten years younger.  The older two I thought would be the buddies, but I guess Whinnie has always preferred to be off more to herself. 

Now here we are in April. The weather is finally starting to get nice and be warmer {at least during the day} My girl is almost shedded out completely, I think she's hanging on to the last bit, because of how cold it still gets at night. The first ride is coming soon! So is the first bathe of spring!  Looking forward to more time with my horse and being able to do more. Loved it where we used to board, with the exception of no place to ride. Easter is coming soon. I expect to spend it with my horse. The kids all do their own thing, and I'm not usually included. It's all good. One day I will be gone, and they can either feel good riddance, or damn should have spent more time with her. 

Every month including this one, God has blessed me to provide a way to make it through the month. I haven't had to struggle near as much as I thought I would, and I haven't had to borrow or strategize as much. Thank you Jesus. !!  Bible study has been going well and the only set back I'm having is "giving up the cigarettes". I think once I get the final stress out of my daily life, I will be able to give that one up in a heartbeat. Maybe sooner, who knows - I pray for forgiveness and strength every day. 

Today is supposed to be my 25th wedding anniversary. Unfortunately, it's my 25 years of regret day. I wish the word narcissist would have been around more back then. To have the knowledge of what to look out for and to AVOID. I sure wouldn't be stuck where I am today if it had. Perhaps everything in life would have been better. One of my regrets is how badly it affected my kids and our relationship, because of someone else. We can't change the past only hope for a better future. 

Which brings us to the upcoming month of May.... I have to leave the house May 31st. I'm offered an apartment in north Seattle, I just don't know if I can afford it by myself.  I've been offered to move in with a friend, but I'm nervous about that too. I'm really a 'loner' type person, that loves my privacy and alone time. Plus I've been told by my kids I'm super hard to live with.! lol - so I really don't know which way to go or how it's all going to go. 

Mother's Day is in May, I don't even want to think about that one. I have doctor appointments and many tests to take in May. I guess I will at least find out what direction my health is going in. Even though I'm not sure about where I'm going. I just want to enjoy the last few weeks I have here in the house. It's beautiful and I really do like living out here. I pray for answers and peace of mind daily.

One day at a time, and don't worry about tomorrow.  So for now, the sun is out, and it's actually supposed to get warm out today ~ so I hope you have a happy day as well. I'm going to get a few things done and enjoy the weather. 

Blessed by God

Life's beautiful today @ the Bright Side of the Barn

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Until next time, Stay Safe and Happy Trails.